6/28/13

   I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am so thankful my mom and step father found the church when I was but 2 years old. I never was encouraged to go on a mission so I never went but I have always served in my own capacity. Because my mom brought us to church every Sunday I knew where to find the truth. This fact was important for me later in life. I fell away from the church more than once in my life. There was many things I needed to learn when I was away from the Church. I even resigned from the Church about 2 years ago. I was rebaptized in January.  Even when I was not a member I still sang in the choir and I even payed my tithe. I know the Church is true.
For those of you who don't know my mom and step father died about 7 years ago. My step father took my moms life and then took his own. It was a tough time for the family. I, myself, was going through some tough times after my divorce. I was attempting suicide and going through an emotional rollercoaster.  My parents death actually saved my life. I stopped focusing on my own problems and started to think of others. I wish I could say I never wished to end my life again after my parents death but I wanted to end my life during a stay in jail in the Salt Lake Detention Center.
Another major event was when my ex father-in-law shot me twice during a visitation with my children. I wish I could say I was completely innocent but the truth is that I played him. I pushed his buttons. He shot me in the stomach and in the back. He was charged with attempt of murder. I was able to get his charges dropped. I could not see putting a man in prison for trying to protect his grandchildren. It is true that he was wrong, but it is also true that I was wrong as well. Being shot made me aware of how fragile life can be and gave me a better perspective on life. Being shot also allowed me to more easily let my children go for the time being.
Another life event was when I was sent to prison. Here I learned how to rely on my Father in heaven. I will blog at a later time on all these subjects but for now I will keep it short and simple.
There are a few fundamental beliefs that I have that is at my core. I believe that life and intelligence was not spawned from nothing but they have always been. I get a kick out of people who believe in the big bang. My question to them is where did the material from the big bang come from. The truth is life and intelligence and matter has always been. I believe we have been placed here by more intelligent people. These people watch over us.